The Couple “What I like to do: remain lucid in ecstasy.”                      -Albert Camus 4 Don’t their eyes tire of each other? Or is it not the eyes that tire? They’re not looking, they’re drinking, communicating through their skin several inches apart. Love can’t be trusted. But that doesn’t mean it isn’t real. They linger over coffee; he strokes the back of her neck; she doesn’t feel impelled to look up or stop but, later, she kisses him behind the ear. 5 And in the mountains there is snow melting to get down from the heights to pour through the clefts in the twisted rocks: natural arches, obstacles—horseshoe shapes. And in the plains there is a dropping of the shoulder-armor, a tingling in the hip sockets, so that even a chance touch at the hipbone startles the center and starts a slow convulsion— release of two creatures (peculiarly, perilously at odds), used to training their gaze on the peripheries, like this bicycle tethered to a parking meter, orange handlebars, silver trunk like a treasure chest perched—not locked—on a wrought iron ledge fixed over the chrome wheel-casings— blue shadow-dappled twig-littered canopies, or the small tantalizing cursive c in the blue neon soft as silk, announcing café Equense where the couple might return in the voluptuous dark. The dark, quietly vibrating like a Jew’s Harp, or her—noiseless—breathing…or, when they are lost in Olmsted’s misty, labyrinthine rambles and, framed by traffic, they pause beside the lake in the dank air where the water is still, another world from the blood-running pavement, the meat-packing plants gray and dour below the rotting piers— warped—(and will they be replaced with fresh wood or fazed out with poured concrete that knows no give or take—no—swelling—…?) What can love repair? By what force of love can they imagine themselves beyond the squalor that surrounds them onto another plane blessed and blessing! 6 Who invented ecstasy? What man or woman first walked around with its burden? Cold shelter from the street, among the bronze mailboxes, inside the bright red— freshly painted—door jambs. He picks her up under the buttocks, she arches her thighs around his hips, plants her feet on the tiles: tongues firm, yet tentative, learning their own momentum; (the rubbery wall of her mouth takes him further in and in.) Tongue and tongue, freckle and freckle, tears, shuddering, swelling in the places where they used to ache, “ain’t no cure,” knowing this touch, this grave flicking of tongues could never be repeated, or knowing it could— knowing it in another consciousness. 7 He strokes her neck at the junction where the occipital bone and cervical spine cross, engage, spark; coccyx tingles, cock rises toward her, not into her, through her, to her; rises as he plies the inside of her ass and thighs, or rubs the crevice where her right forefinger and thumb divide, stroking her cheek, or the hollow below her earlobe, ankle bone, clavicle, tonguing every millimeter, until sea dissolves into sky (their raft turns over in warm water and they are that water, and bob, afloat, buoyant; at rest in secret knowledge of each other’s darknesses… and now he could weep.) But there is no ice in the water where they would roil and tumble, and where avenues welcome those who walk hand and hand, gait easy, backpacks half-full, half empty— the sun coming out now, as if synchronized to their desire— and as the runners circle the reservoir they lower their eyes to adjust to the light bouncing off the water to ignite the cinders; the green through the dead- ice capped leaves; a small curve, an indent on the track gleams like a bracelet, before an azure haze takes over. 8 It gets warm. She has to peel her Anorak. She cups her hand over her eyes in the light and wind off the reservoir, to see the easy arcs the gulls make as they spiral upward over the all-angle roller coaster of the rooftops, in the comforting thud of other feet, as if lulled by the sound of a lover’s heartbeat; danger, in distraction; she must kick the chain-link fence in order to set off again, get back into the stream, put her mind back into her body; her body: slender; deceptive. There is a power in it she has always known. And feared. Or feared others would fear. But it’s difficult, with others, always—just how to say it? Necessary to hold some one thing back. Whom could she trust to let it out? It might scare her. (Scare him.) From The Couple